Glute/Hamstring Training

So much fun! came to train with me at World Gym in Sheffield! Thank you so much, I had a great time!!



Thank you so very much Christian Duque of for giving me the opportunity to share my story and some advice for competitors!! You can check out my interview here–> Blog

Hold Strong: A Lesson in Fear

fireworksOK, so maybe the setting wasn’t exactly out of a movie. I wasn’t standing under the night sky with a backdrop of colorful fireworks exploding behind me in celebration of the Fourth of July. No, instead I was standing in Walmart in front of the sweet potato baby food crying in my boyfriend’s arms. The Fourth of July is one of my favorite holiday’s and I had just sat through a picnic eating lukewarm egg-whites and beef that smelled like it was a little past due.

A few more days passed and I was still a roller-coaster of emotion. I simply could not get myself in a strong positive mindset for more than a moment before it was replaced with negativity. A few nights later I hit a low and it seemed my Pros and Cons for finishing this prep were perfectly balanced. My head was swimming and I just could not find the right answer, I always know the right answer in my heart, but I simply could not find it.

 I tend to shut down when I have a problem, literally I will go silent- hard to believe I know. In desperation I had finally messaged my Coach to tell him how I had been feeling, but as usual I had protected it with a certain level of toughness. I never want to be a burden and instead of telling my Coach when things started to get troublesome, I let them internalize and fester until I was a clouded mess sitting on my kitchen counter ready to quit.

I realized I needed to be completely honest with him that this wasn’t about the diet, the training, missing out on summer activities or that my body wasn’t physically feeling up to the challenge of eight more weeks of prep- instead I needed to tell him that this was about doubt and fear of failure. I had to let go of my pride.

The acknowledgement of what was really bothering me sent a wave of relief that washed away the clouded thoughts. My Coach spoke from his heart and personal experience in response, it was the honesty and guidance that I needed. My heart and mind were finally in sync and I knew the right decision. Doubt and fear of failure were my reasons for wanting to quit, but the only way I can fail is by not trying. Stay strong, persist until you achieve.

Hold Strong

Proud Peacock: a Lesson in Liking Who You Are

The door burst open, and she charged at me, her eyes sparkling. Excitedly my tiny little three year old puffed her little belly out like a proud peacock and triumphantly said “Look Mom, look at how good I am at this!” She had buttoned her shirt all by herself! She was ecstatic with her new skill and shared it with everyone we met that day. Her exuberant proclamation was something to be celebrated and everyone cheered her on. Somewhere within the aging process an action like this becomes a faux pas. It is more socially acceptable to pick ourselves apart, layer by layer than to exude confidence.

Admitting that you are good at something and/or happy with who you are physically and mentally becomes an act of bragging. Instead we discuss our weaknesses. We focus on our shortcomings. We convince ourselves that we aren’t worth it. We discuss with friends how skinny, fat, depressed, and/or anxious we are. We focus on the negatives and belittle the positives. There are days when I look at myself in the mirror and think “Augh, you are so small. You are never going to get big. You are a silly little girl, chasing a dream that is way to big for you.” These are my worst days in the gym. I completely defeat myself and subsequently have an awful training session. What I need to be doing is focusing on what I DO have. I need to be thankful for how far I have come. I need to be thankful that I have the ability to train. I need to be confident that I have the tools, support system, and dedication to achieve.

It’s time to focus on what is wonderful in our lives. There is no joy to be found in lamenting. We need to relish in the excitement of our mini victories and let those define us. We need to remind ourselves that we are worth it. There was once a time when we were all excited proud little peacocks. We believed we were amazing and could be anything. Find your inner peacock; allow yourself to be comfortable and proud of who you are. Celebrate your uniqueness. Exude a confident happiness that draws others in to your positive light and gives them the courage to love themselves too.