Yes, Yes, GOOD, Excellent….Wait…Must breathe, need oxygen. I gasped for air and the image was gone. This time I angled the mirror a bit more, stood up straighter, and really sucked it in. My eyes glazed over and I stared in happy bliss. I had been perfecting this technique since I was a young teenager, now in my mid-twenties I had mastered it. Daily I would stand sideways in the mirror using angles and super human feats of “sucking in” to create the body image I desired. There I was day in and day out, wishing in front of the mirror.
Eventually I reached a point where my technique no longer rendered the pleasing image it once had. There had been too many weekends of pizza with a side of vodka cranberry, too many days of sitting on the couch staring blankly at a t.v. , too many hours spent driving in my car for work, and now two precious bouncing babies. What was I going to do? Wishing and daydreaming weren’t working, tears got me sympathy, comforting myself with food was making it worse and driving by the gym wasn’t working either. The time had come for me to make a choice. I could sit and wallow, accept my fate of frumpdom and carry on OR I could say NO. That day, I chose NO. It has been one of my life’s greatest decisions.
The fact of the matter was that I had all the tools necessary to change at any given moment- I had the power of choice. Nowhere was it written that because I had lived my life a certain way to that point that it had to continue on in that manner. No, they don’t actually hand out free passes when you give birth that say “Well, you had a baby here is your lifetime pass to be out of shape. Welcome to the land of eternal frumpdom.” It’s a choice. No one has control over your body but YOU. Choose differently for yourself today, stop wishing and start doing.